Adventures in Running with Maurine

End of an Era

Leave a comment

I’ve come to the hard conclusion today that I have to give up my dreams of being an ultrarunner. Maybe someday in the future I can revisit these dreams, but for now I am tucking them away.

I’m depressed thinking about how much money I am losing on race entries over the past year or so (and in the next year) because injuries preventing me from running a race. Or, if I run a race, being hurt afterwards. Right now, I’m so tired of being in pain off and on that its not worth it.

My hip hurts – some days it doesn’t, but on the days that it does, it affects everything I do.

My back hurts – some days it doesn’t, but on the days that it does, it affects everything I do.

My foot hurts – both Plantar Fasciitis and some weird cramping in the front of my foot that no one can seem to figure out.

Now my left IT band hurts.

Unfortunately – regular doctors (that is – one’s my insurance covers) don’t seem to care enough to actually fix the issues – just deal with pain. Chiropractic helps and massage helps – but is not covered by my insurance and is getting more expensive than I care to keep paying.

So – for now, I’m going to settle back into being a normal runner and staying at half marathon distances and less. Maybe focus on weight training more and lose the remaining 10 or so pounds I need to lose. Keep eating healthy and enjoy other hobbies.

It hurts to have dreams end. However, it has been so worth it. I can’t describe the feeling of completing my first marathon, 50K, 50 mile, and getting my beloved belt buckle. I hope nobody feels the need to say I wouldn’t be injured if I wasn’t a runner, because my foot problems started long before I took up distance running and I know plenty of people with injuries that never ran.

Life is full of challenges. This is my current challenge. I am sure there are things I need to learn. I just haven’t figured them out yet. One day I’d like to be pain free. If not – I just need to learn to handle pain better and not let it play its lovely mental games that it does.

I’ll still be on trails and roads – just shorter distances. I still hope to help out at races. I enjoy the ultra community too much to stay away. Strangely enough – it “hurts” less to be out helping the community than to stay at home watching it on social media.

But for now – I’m off to find some Phish Food.

Advertisements

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s